Hello everyone. It’s been a while, hasn’t it?
I’m sure you all missed me in my absence.
…Or did you?
It’s been a good while since I last wrote anything on this blog, and even then, the few things I have written in the last several months haven’t exactly been something that my readers particularly cared for (because who really wants to read an analysis of a stupid MySpace band fronted by a criminal?).
Honestly, blogging wise, 2020 was by far my worst year. I only wrote 16 posts, and the vast majority of them weren’t very good. I dropped my quarterly seasonal coverage posts for the latest Anime seasons, a tradition that’s been a staple of Lethargic Ramblings since I first started blogging half a decade ago. The plans I had for the blog in 2020 pretty much all fell through. And while I made some videos on my new YouTube channel, which helped give some more content for the blog, I didn’t make anywhere near the amount that I wanted to.
So… Where am I? What’s going on? Am I coming back? Am I quitting? Am I suddenly going to get a spark of inspiration and churn out like 5 posts in a week and then disappear for 6 months?
I wish I had the answer. I want to write. I really, really do. But a lot of the time when I try, I just find myself struggling to come up with anything. Or if I do have an idea, I can’t find it in me to put the words down.
Is it writers block? Not exactly. Because I know what I want to write. I have a ton of ideas for videos too, which I could easily turn into written posts for the blog for those of you that prefer to read articles over videos with my god awful voice. I just… Haven’t been feeling motivated I guess.
2020 was a hard year for me. Given the state of the world, it was a hard year for everyone, but things really took their toll on me. Being stuck in the house due to the virus really hasn’t been good for me, both mentally and physically. I miss going out. I miss going on holidays. I miss going to restaurants, the cinema and other things. On top of all of that, some other things happened that really caused my motivation to take a hit.
I was doxxed on Twitter and my family and livelihood were put at risk for a while, all because someone didn’t like that I enjoyed and supported an Ecchi Manga that can be purchased from your local book store. I also had someone in the blogging community (who shall remain nameless) accuse me and my close internet friends of harassment because I disagreed with them policing people’s enjoyment of shows like the upcoming Redo of Healer. This same person also accused us of being bigoted because we want to watch Anime and have fun with our lives and not constantly talk about whatever political issue is currently dominating the headlines, when it ultimately doesn’t matter because it’s all sensationalism. I also feel pretty disconnected from the aniblogging community in general nowadays, both due to a lack of posting and a lack of interacting with everyone else’s posts. And the very few interactions I get on the few posts I do write doesn’t exactly help. I don’t do this for praise or for views, but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a little disappointed with my lack of interaction with other bloggers nowadays, even if it’s entirely my own fault.
But with all that said, it’s a new year. 2020 is behind us, and 2021 is well underway. So… What’s happening? Where is Leth?
I wish I had a definitive answer to that. I wish I could tell you I was definitely coming back to blog regularly and you’ll be seeing 2-3 posts a week from me like the good old days. And I want to, but I also don’t like making promises I can’t keep. I’ve done that too many times in the past.
That being said, the desire to blog is there. My plan this year is to do everything I can to get semi-regular content out again. And I’m going to start with a few posts covering my favourite pieces of media from 2020. I know it’s a bit late for that, given that we’re already halfway through January, but… I wanna do it, so… Hopefully you’ll enjoy those?
I’m also hoping to bring back the Seasonal First Impressions posts. Starting with the season that’s already airing. Once all of the first episodes have aired, expect a post about all of those. Hopefully.
As for other plans? Well… We’ll see. I want to get more videos out on the channel, which will result in more written versions of those for the blog. I want to get some other blog exclusive content out too. But it just depends how the year goes.
2021 is going to be a crazy year for me in my real life for a lot of reasons, the most notable being that come May I’m going to be a dad to a baby girl, and once she’s here I’m not sure how much time I’ll have for the internet and Anime in general, let alone content creation, but I’ll do my best.
And that’s it really. That’s all I have to say, I guess. That I’m going to try to write again.
For the few of those that are reading this, and still care, it really does mean a lot to me. I’m sorry I haven’t been around and I’m sorry for those who expected regular content and didn’t get anything close to that. I appreciate every single one of you that looks forward to reading my stuff, even if it’s far from the best.
So… Here’s to another year. I’ll see you all soon. I hope.
I will do my best to continue to create.